Excerpt — “Crazy” — novel in progress
I often wish I were a drug addict. Or an alcoholic. Then, I could give up my vices, get myself and my life in order, and everyone would welcome me back — the prodigal daughter, fresh from rehab, having dropped 40 pounds with a new health club membership, firm, foxy, with a new outlook on life.
“God, you look mah-velous! It’s wonderful to have you back, Nan!” But I’m not an alcoholic, or an addict. As a matter of fact, my name’s not Nan. It’s Patricia. Patricia Miller.
And what I am is crazy. No ten-week stay in a clinic, no treadmill, no amount of will power, is ever going to put my life in order. Some people think it’s because my mother died of breast cancer, leaving me the
Update: This essay was written seven years ago. Zeke is now 14 and somewhat more mellow.
Last night, I sat in front of the TV and massaged the shaggy front paws of my dog, Zeke. Zeke, who is seven years old, just discovered he likes massages.
There’s a bit of irony in Zeke lying down next to me like that, because, though he is the sweetest, most wonderful dog in the world… to me… much of the time, the rest of the time, and to most other people, Zeke is a grade A curmudgeon.
If you tell Zeke “Good Night,” he grunts all the way to his bed, and then, he growls if you pet him.
An Ordinary Day
There are days that are just different by their nature – like a day last summer that inspired me to sit down and write a poem… something I rarely do.
It was a strange day. The weather was autumn-like in the middle of July. The sky was so dark and overcast that the sun didn’t shine at all. On top of that, I recall a light drizzle from dawn on.
But what made this day spectacular wasn’t the quirky weather, it was what happened when I took my dog for a walk.
A butterfly started following us. Zeke, a 45-pound Bearded Collie, noticed it right away. He started to watch it, and so did I. The butterfly didn’t care. The beautiful, yellow and black creature flew along with us for at least a minute, weaving in and out, carried by its wings and the currents of air.
And it followed my dog and me so closely that once,